I came to realize that I do a lot of talking, and very little listening. I am normally at home alone five days a week, ten hours a day and I have so many things to talk about. I am trying to refrain from speaking all the time, and asking other people about their interests, their hobbies, the people they love, their day and how they are doing. I try to actually listen to what they are saying and even hear what they are leaving out.


Why is it I must prove that I am right and he is wrong? Why must I continue the argument? Why must I have the last word? I am damaging my relationship with the person I love. I have already destroyed two relationships with the daughters I love because I just don’t know when to shut up. I need to refrain from speaking, stop arguing, even if I think I am right and the other person is wrong. I need to remember that the person is more important than winning a stupid argument.


I am not a mall person. I have not really been a mall person after my twenties. I do however, love Family Dollar, Dollar General, Dollar Tree, Yard sales, thrift shops, and Amazon where I pay a small monthly fee and I get free shipping. I get a little thrill with each purchase that I make and then I go through my bank statement and realize just how much all these inexpensive purchases have added up.


I crave sugar. I think about it all the time. I have cravings for cake, cookies, candy bars, ice cream, cupcakes, you name it. It is an obsession of mine. I feel a great satisfaction once I have that piece of cake. That is not true. I want more cake, more Oreos and more junk food. Once I start I cannot stop. I need to refrain from eating all of that garbage.


I need to refrain from speaking all the time, winning the argument, spending so much and eating so much junk food. I will be so much happier if I do, but how do I do it ? I do these things by asking God to help me.

Dear Father in heaven, Please change me. Give me your power and help me to refrain from speaking, winning the argument, spending so much and eating garbage. These things are harmful to me physically, mentally emotionally financially and spiritually. I am powerless in my own strength to stop. I give all of these burdens to you Lord. Please help me to refrain. I pray in Jesus name, amen.

7 thoughts on “I MUST REFRAIN

  1. But never refrain from being who God made you to be…even if people think you’re an idiot.

    People wish me safety,
    and they wish me health,
    but they do know know me,
    and that danger is my wealth.
    When I was just a little tyke,
    I thought it would be neat
    to ride my older brother’s bike
    while standing on the seat
    down a hill in the direction
    of a nice deep lake,
    and through a busy intersection;
    that’s the route I’d take!
    Good thing that I started young;
    just look at what I’ve now become!

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    1. Andrew Budek Schmeisser thank you for your comment and your beautiful poem. I can just picture a little boy doing that… Lovely poem. Seriously though do you know that your life is held in God’s hands? That it was a loving God who protected you from all of the dangers in your life? there once was a little boy named Erik Yoder.. He was not so lucky. He was a little daredevil too. When he was eight years old he was hit by a car and died. His parents still grieve for him many years later. God loves you my friend. Won’t you repent of your sins, trust in Jesus death, burial, resurrection and seat on the throne of God today? Won’t you ask him to be your Lord and Savior today? And yes, I do try to be myself as my friends and my family will tell you. They have seen the good, the bad and the worst of me but like Jesus, they all still love me. I am praying for you my friend.


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