Depression is like a black cloud that envelops my heart and soul and mind. I cannot see the sun shining outside. I feel so weary and lifeless, like a worn out dishrag.


I am a Christian. I have faith. I love Jesus. I meditate on Scripture. I pray. I go to church every Sunday. I have asked God to remove my depression and I believed that He would deliver me. But God has chosen not to heal me.

Okay so originally this blog was very negative and depressing. Yes I do want to crawl back into bed, sleep through the day and not deal with my grief and heartbreak, and no I do not want to clean the house, read my Bible, exercise, go for a walk, sit outside…

but the thing is these are the things I must force myself to do or I will continue to be miserable and unhappy. Nobody can do this for me. I have to win this battle myself- with God’s help.

I meditated on Scripture. Still depressed. Read some more. Read FaceBook posts and blogs about how great God is. I reread the post I wrote just this morning about overcoming challenges. I started praying for other people. I prayed for young girls and boys being rescued from human trafficking. Reading about these young women and children made me realize just how blessed I am. I forced myself to sit outside for 20 minutes. It was warm and sunny. I wrote in my notebook. I cleaned one room of my house and it looks great. I called a friend and we had a nice chat.

I also decided to something nice for someone else. My sister does so many nice things for other people I wanted to do something nice for her. I made a mess in the kitchen making homemade lasagna for Mary and her family. As it happened, she invited my husband and I to come over and share the lasagna with them. I FORCED MYSELF to clean the kitchen a second time after making the lasagna – it was a royal pain in the butt and I didn’t feel like doing it but I did it anyway. These are the things that helped me overcome depression for today. Tomorrow is another day but I am focusing on having a good day today.



  1. Terri, This is so true and so spot on. I deal with periodic depression and have come to realize that unless a person has walked through it they can not possibly understand it. I feel so blessed that my Pastor’s wife has gone through this type of depression and understands it isn’t something you can shake off but need to choose to walk through and force yourself to go through the motions to get through the day, hoping tomorrow will be better. Thank you so much for your honest sharing.


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