Is your family wounded or broken today?

I have a certain routine to my day, especially my morning routine. I wake up, spend time with my husband before he leaves for work, have my cup of coffee, read posts and post on FaceBook, then at 7:00 or 7:30 am I always watch Joyce Meyer on tv. She always inspires me and stirs me up. I take notes of her great messages then post them on FB. After that I read 2-3 chapters in the Old Testement and one chapter of the New Testement in my Bible. Next I open my prayer notebook and pray for my friends and my loved ones. Then I get dressed go for my outdoor walk with the dogs and feed my birds. And then continue with the rest of my day.

Well today I joined WordPress.com and I want to start blogging. The more I read, the more excited I got. I have so many painful and joyful and life changing experiences in my life that I would love to share with people. I love to write and I especially want to help people that are hurting. I think God could really us me. I was so engrossed in reading about blogging and readiing people’s blogs that I totally lost track of time.

Then a dear friend called who I have not spoken with in a long time and we chatted and she shared her prayer requests with me. By that time it was time to take my dogs out for a walk- I had not taken them out since 4:30 am and it was already 9:15.

And then it happened. This black cloud settled over me. I did NOT want to read my Bible. I could think of a lot of things I would rather do because I really really did not want to read my Bible. I called one of my best friends. We usually chat on the phone for a while. I explained all of this to her and she prayed a 2 sentence prayer that God would speak to my heart and I would open my Women of Faith Study Bible. I literally had to force myself.

As soon as I started reading the Word of God I was instantly glad I did. I love to read the old familiar stories in Genesis and I read the study notes and I always learn something, I am always comforted or encouraged or inspired or convicted of my sin or just be reminded of the woman God wants me to be.

This morning Genesis chapter 33 spoke especially personally to me. It concerned family relationships. Jacob and Esau were brothers- they never liked each other, they never got along and to make matters worse the mother favored one son and the father favored the other. While the father was on his deathbed his wife and her favorite son tricked the father into giving the birthright and a full blessing to the younger son. ( The custom was the oldest child had the birthright and got his father’s full blessing and the younger brothers would serve the older brother and the older brother would gain all the land and be blessed by God and be prosperous.) Esau, the older son hated Jacob and planned to kill him after his father died. The mother sent Joseph away. Jacob was gone for 14 years- he served seven years working for one wife and another 7 years working for the second wife.

Now we come to Genesis 33. My chapter for today. I understand now why the devil did NOT want me to read this chapter…Jacob is returning home. He fears that his brother, who is approaching with a great army of men will kill him, his family, his servants and all his livestock. Jacob sends his servants ahead to his brother with gifts of livestock. The brother refuses the gifts but instead Esau runs to his brother and embraces his brother and they wept. Their hard hearts were softened and they felt love and mercy and forgiveness for each other.

Does your family live in perfect harmony with each other or is there conflict and strife?My 4 children did not have a happy childhood- they each grew up in different homes- 3 of them were in numerous different foster homes. Each one says they have forgiven me 25 years later but our family is still wounded and broken. One of my adult children visited me on Christmas Eve and we had a great time before he drove back to D.C. Two of my other children drove together from New York and New England to surprise me with a visit. I got to see my granddaughter who I have not seen for 3 years. My child who lives in Michigan was there also with my other two grandchildren… I live in Michigan. We had the happiest 4 days that we have had in many many years. It was a joy to see my children and grandchildren bond with each other. I was filled with joy. Then Friday night words were said in anger- cruel unkind words that left all of us hurt, devastated and angry. My son and my daughter left two days later and two of my children are not speaking to me, I cannot see my grandchildren- they want nothing to do with me and one of my children wants nothing to do with anyone in our family. So, as you can imagine, I am deeply hurt and dissappointed. But I have chosen to focus on the happy times we did share together and now my focus is on God, my loving husband, the two children that do love me and want to be their mother, my dogs, my cat and my birds.

I can see now why not he devil did his very best to keep me from reading the story of Jacob and Esau. If there was hope for these two there is hope for my family- and for yours. Whatever your family situation is God can heal it if we turn to Jesus, ask him to forgive our sin, be our Lord and Savior and put all of our faith in his death on the cross, burial and resurrection. Once we do this we are born again, we become a child of God and we can pray to him and give him all of our worries and cares and burdens and ask him to help us to patiently wait until his timing is perfect. He does not always promise us we will get what we want and we need to ask him to help us accept the things we cannot change… but he hears our every prayer, he loves us, he loves our children and our family members and He knows what is best for us. All I know is that if he could soften the hearts of Jacob and Esau he can soften the hearts of anyone if we pray and trust him and patiently wait.

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Daily Inspiration

My Morning Conversation With Jesus #2

Dear God,

I feel grouchy this morning. I am tired, I am in pain and I started my day with an email that rubbed me the wrong way.

Dear Child,

That is your problem. Instead of starting your day with emails, start your day reading My Words. You have a Serenity Bible and numerous really good devotionals to choose from. Start your day with Me.

Dear God,

I am tired.

Dear Child,

I know

Dear God,

The “dairy free” ice cream I ate last night made me really sick to my stomach.

Dear Child,

I know.

Dear God,

I have a splitting headache and my back hurts really bad.

Dear Child,

I know

Dear God,

Is that all you have to say to me?

Dear Child,

No it is not all I have to say. If you want to know what I have to say then open your Bible and read my words. Read the passage over and over again. Meditate on it. Think about what it means to you personally. Start with Romans chapter 8. Then read the first eight verses of Psalm 119. After that read Psalm 139. I have so much I want to say to you.

Dear God,

I need my coffee before I start my day.

Dear Child,

You need ME before you start your day but go ahead and have a cup of coffee then read my Word. I have a lot to say to you.

Love, Jesus

“Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knows us not, because it knew Him not.” 1 John 3:1

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MORNING CONVERSATION WITH JESUS

Dear Jesus,

I woke up this morning, and my back hurt, my legs hurt and I feel sick to my stomach. I am only 59 years old but I feel like I am 80 years old.

Dear Child of God,

You are getting older. You are going to have aches and pains. You slept on a leaky air mattress this weekend. You swam four times in three days. You overdid it with all the swimming and jogging underwater. That is why you are in pain. But you had a great weekend and you should be thanking me.

Dear Jesus,

You are right. It was wonderful! We may not have a swimming pool in our back yard. But we have two beautiful lakes twenty and thirty minutes away. It was so hot this weekend. The water in the lakes felt so cool and refreshing. I love water. I grew up with a swimming pool in my back yard. Thank you Jesus, for creating rivers, lakes, oceans and streams for us to cool down in. Thank you for sandy beaches and grassy beaches. Thank you for shady trees. Thank you that I am not too old to go up to my neck in water and do some swimming and floating. Thank you for a husband that likes to go swimming and cool off in the lake on a hot day. Thank you for answering my prayers. You gave us one fantastic two and a half days! Thank you for my wonderful mother in law who is good enough and healthy enough to watch our dogs.

Dear child of God,

You are welcome my child. I love to bless you. If you seek me with all your heart, put me first, and obey me I will pour out my blessings on you. You will have pain, trials and sorrows. That is a normal part of life. Everyone has hurts, trials and sorrows. I promise I will be with you through all of your trials and all of your sorrows. Look to my words for comfort, strength, faith and hope. Talk to me. Spend time with me. I love you. I long to have a personal, loving relationship with you. That is why I died on the cross for you. That is why I paid for your sins. When you repented of your sins I adopted you into my family. You became my child and you received eternal life. You were chosen to receive my favor. Truly, you have a lot to be thankful for.

Dear Jesus,

You are right. I am sorry I complained. Thank you Jesus for leaving your kingdom in heaven to be born in a stable. Thank you for the years you spent teaching, healing and pouring out your love to others. Thank you that I can read about your life, your death and your resurrection in the Bible. Thank you for dying for my sins, being buried and then rising again three days later.You are the God that created the earth and everything in it. You are the God that created me. You are the God who will never leave me nor forsake me, no matter how many times I mess up. You are the God that loves me unconditionally, all the time. You are the God that I praise. You are the God I worship. Thank you for giving me life on earth. Thank you that you have given me eternal life; I know if I died today I would love with You forever in the kingdom of heaven. Thank you that I woke up this morning. In Jesus name I pray, amen.

My child,

Well done. Now you can face the day with a grateful heart. Now you need to spend time in my Word. Email can wait. Facebook can wait. The tv can wait. You don’t need to call a friend. Shower, dress and eat a good breakfast. Take your medicine. Then feast on My Word. It will will feed your hungry soul. Read of my love for you.

“But God showed His love for us, in that, while we were sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8

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WORSHIP – THE ANTIDOTE TO MY SADNESS

I was feeling sad this morning. Even though I definitely did not feel like it I walked a mile with my labrador Willow, alternating between speed walking/ jogging and medium walking with a five minute warm up and cool down. It was a good 22 minute walk. Then Bentley (my short, fat doxie) and I walked around our spacious yard six times, in the same manner for another 20 minutes. I still felt sad.

I OPENED MY BIBLE AND READ ABOUT JESUS

Then I opened my Bible and read about Jesus in the Garden of Gethsamane, facing His death and being heavy hearted, sorrowful and deeply depressed. His closest friends slept. He must have felt so all alone. They had one last dinner together and the next day every one of his friends fled. His friends totally abandoned Him in His darkest hour.

JESUS DEATH

He was spit on, beaten, slapped, scourged (whipped with straps containing metal and glass). A crown of thorns was placed on His head. He was stripped and they put a red robe on Him and made fun of Him. He was stripped again and they put His own clothes back on Him. And He was crucified. In the gospel of Matthew only once were the words of Jesus written. The one question Jesus asked, that Matthew recorded was “My God, my God [Not my Father, as He had always called Him before] “Why have you forsaken me?” Such physical, mental, emotional and spiritual anguish is more than anything I have ever gone through, or anything I will ever go through. He gave His life for us, willingly because He loved us so much. In the previous chapter asked His disciples “Don’t you think I could call ten legions of angels to deliver me?” He could have refused to die for our sins-He could have called the angels of heaven to come and destroy everyone on earth, but He willingly took our place, bearing the wrath of God and the full punishment for our sins.

JESUS WAS BURIED, JESUS ROSE FROM THE DEAD

He was buried, the tomb was tightly secured with a big heavy stone and mighty Roman guards watched the tomb but they could not stop Jesus. The Son of God rose from the dead! He is alive! He rules and reigns on the throne of God! All He asks is that we repent of our sins, have faith in Him and ask Him to be our Lord and Savior. Won’t you confess your sin to Jesus, ask Him to forgive you and give your life to Him? Christian, won’t you give Jesus all of you? Please- let today be the day you give your life to Jesus!

I sang the song below to Jesus, in worship. I changed all of the He’s to You. The chorus, is my my prayer to Jesus for today’s blog. The chorus says:

Living You loved me, /Dying You saved me,/Buried You carried my sins far away;/Rising You justified freely forever/One day You’re Coming- Oh glorious day! AMEN!!!

THE ANTIDOTE FOR MY POISONOUS PAIN

This blog was taken from a message that was preached on Sunday. I did not view it until late last night (Monday). I can see why the devil did not want me to hear it. It was exactly what needed to hear. I wondered, when I needed this so badly on Sunday why did God allow me to struggle with the technology so badly that I finally gave up? Why did God not make sure I heard what I so desperately needed to hear until late Monday night? Then the answer came to me.

ON SUNDAY

On Sunday I wrote about all of my poisonous pain, sorrow, suffering, hopelessness and despair in my blog. (I did not say so, but I contemplated taking a drug overdose, as I have on many occasions because I was just tired of being alive.) People read that blog and made comments. I believe that many people reading that blog felt the same pains of depression, loneliness and worthless feelings that I felt on Sunday. Hopefully today they will read about the Antidote to pain and hopelessness.

AN AWESOME MESSAGE

The message that I heard last night came from Psalm chapter 56. Please take a few minutes and read the entire Psalm. Please do it right now. I like to sit outside, in the cool of the morning, listening to the birds singing and enjoying my back yard when I read God’s words, found in the Bible.

Here is a small portion of the Psalm…

You number my wanderings; (You) put my tears in your bottle; are they not in your Book? When I cry out to You, then my enemies (my depression) will turn back; This I know, because GOD is for me. In God (I will praise His Word), in the LORD ( I will praise His Word), In GOD have I put my trust; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? ”

MAN’S INHUMANITY TO MAN

Man can do quite a lot to us. Our Pastor read a few newspaper headlines: an old man was shot and killed, a child was shot and killed, six women were robbed, a woman was set on fire! What terrible atrocities! I have not had that happen to me or any member of my family, however, men ( and women) have done terrible things to me. As a child I was molested, and later I was beaten, abused, raped, my children were taken away from me by the state and never returned, I have been abandoned, rejected too many times to count, slandered, my two daughters have not spoken to me in five years and one of my daughters has poisoned our grandchildren’s minds against me and my husband. What an awful thing to do to a child. My husband and I have not been allowed to have any contact with any of our grandchildren for five years. We don’t know if we will ever see them again, in this lifetime. All of their mother’s hate me. Yes, men, and women can do terrible things to you.

THE BACKGROUND OF DAVID

In 1 Samuel 21 and 22 we can read about David’s background. He had been anointed as Israel’s King by the prophet, but Saul was still the ruling King. David, fleeing for his life was hiding in caves. Saul has the entire army looking for David, to kill him. David, had decided he would never harm Saul, God’s annointed one. David was hiding in Gath, surrounded by Philisties. (They hated him because David had killed their mighty warrior, Goliath.) He was all alone. If he had trusted anyone or brought anyone with them, he would be endangering my their life. He was rejected, lonely, afraid, felt the pain of despair and hopelessness. Have you ever felt all alone?

MANY TRUTHS IN PSALM 57

We see so many truths in this Psalm- truths that we can apply to our own lives. David was lonely. David was afraid; He had good reason to be afraid. David chose faith over fear. Where did David get his great faith? By studying God’s Word. At that time God’s Word was only the first five books of the Bible but David read about how God took care of Abraham, Isaac, Joseph and Moses. He learned about the character of God.

THE CHARACTER OF GOD

God is good. God loves us. God knows what is going on in our lives- He understands. He is always with us. God had the power to create us and He has the power to give us the strength we need, to get to through each day, one day at a time. [If you want to learn about the character of God read through the book of Psalms with a highlighter and highlight every verse that tells you about God. He is Almighty God, Creator of heaven and earth, our Fortress, our Redeemer, our Shepherd, our Comfort and so much more. ] Read about how great God is.

THE CHARACTER OF JESUS

Jesus is the Son of God, equal to God the Father and the Holy Spirit. Read about Jesus in the gospels: Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. In John 3:16, 17 we read that Jesus did not come to earth to condemn us, He came to die on a cross to save us. He gave His life for you, and for me. In 1 John 1:9 it says if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Why? Because Jesus death paid for our sins. The Bible promises is eternal life if we repent of our sins and trust in Jesus.

[Oh my goodness! I am sitting outdoors and the most beautiful dragonfly just landed on my pinky finger, which is standing up! He only stayed for a few seconds, but that has never happened to me before! God sent that beautiful creature to amaze and inspire me! How can we look at all of God’s many different creatures and not believe in a Creator?]

THE ANTIDOTE FOR OUR POISONOUS PAIN

“To despair is to turn your back on God. There is no greater antidote to pain than worship. Worship takes us out of ourselves and into the presence of God.” Pastor Andrew Willis. How do we worship God? By pouring out our hearts to Jesus in prayer, praising God for who He is and for His great mercy and love, by being thankful for His many blessings and by thanking Him for each one. We worship Him by playing music on YouTube or on the radio, or reading songs on a hymnal and singing praises to Him. We worship God by reading His Word and learning about Him, by meeting with other believers on Saturday or Sunday, or any other day. We worship God by praying for those whom God loves throughout the week, by giving sacrificially to our local churches, and missionaries and by giving to the poor and the homeless.

MY PRAYER

Dear Jesus,

I thank You that You are my Creator, that You love me, that You died on a cross for me, You forgave my sins, which are many, that You adopted me into your family and promised me eternal life- not because I am good but because You are good. I fail You over and over again every day. I am filled with pride and selfishness. I have a hot temper. I have said and done terrible things and I have hurt myself and the people I love. I have destroyed relationships with friends and family members who once loved me. I have argued with my husband over the stupidest things. I am stubborn. I am opinionated but I know You have forgiven all my sins, past present and future. No matter how many times I have messed up You continue to love me, you keep all my tears in a bottle, You know me and understand me far better than anyone does, including myself. Your mercies are new every morning. I praise You for your mercy, your unfailing love, your forgiveness, your compassion, your comfort, your life lessons, for the family you have given me, especially my husband, my sisters, my brothers and my sons. I thank you for the wonderful friends You have given me over 59 years of life who are patient with me, encourage me, give me wisdom and good counsel, pray with me and for me. I thank You that I have breast cancer, for you have used me to share gospel tracts and cookies with receptionists, lab techs, nurses, assistants, doctors and my surgeon. I praise you for being with me every step of the way and I thank you that I am done with my chemotherapy!!! Help me to love you more. Help me to spend time every day in Your Word and in prayer. Help me to be meek, humble, gentle, merciful, forgiving, and at peace with all people- for in my flesh and my own efforts I am none of those things. I can and will continue on in prayer but for now I will just say, In Your name I pray, amen.

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RAMBLINGS OF A CRAZY PERSON

I am never going to change. Never. I am hopeless. Totally and completely hopeless. Nobody understands. Not even Jesus -for Jesus was never crazy, mentally ill, sinful, with a hot temper, and not even Jesus understands what it is like being inside my head.

Last week I had a disagreement with a family member. I was humble. I took all of the blame. I apologized over and over again for not wanting to do what she wanted me to do. And yet, in the end she told me to delete me from my email and I cursed at her. I told her she was a hateful ____! I still think she is a hateful ______! When I showed my husband our texts messages to show him that I had tried really hard to be nice he could not believe I was trying to be nice. He said I was being passive aggressive and trying to make her feel bad. That was a week ago- maybe two weeks ago, I don’t know.

Then yesterday thing went wrong- terribly, terribly wrong and I complained- in writing. I wrote a very angry email ! I told her in no uncertain terms how badly her person did something, even though I loved the other four people who put on the program. Later I sent her a lengthy email telling her how awful cancer is, how awful it is not getting any sleep and how awful my life is. After a lengthy explanation I apologized. Nobody wants to hear my apologies. People are tired of my apologies. I am tired of my apologies.

Then today I tried this thing, that thing and the other thing to get my technology to work!!! I FREAKING HATE TECHNOLOGY!!! I tried for almost an hour to get my church service to work. Two other churches had a live stream on my FaceBook page that I could have and should have watched but I was determined to hear MY Pastor preach. I could feel the Incredible Hulk inside of me turning, green, gigantic and ugly. I was frustrated and getting really angry and the person trying to help me knew it but I did not scream and curse and yell til I was off the phone and in the privacy of my own home. I felt a surge of adrenaline similar to that of the incredible hulk!!!! I took my bipolar medicine today. I didn’t work. I took my antianxiety medicine today and I drank half a wine cooler. I sat outside. Then furiously, I cleaned my kitchen- I mean I really really cleaned my kitchen!!!! Then I furiously colored in my coloring book- minute details as though this was the most important artwork in the world!!! Then I wrote this miserable and angry blog!!!

I am like the hamster on the wheel, spinning and spinning, trying and trying to get somewhere, going nowhere and failing miserably. I will always be crazy. I will always be mentally ill. I will always have a terrible temper!!! I have always been a crazy bitch and I always will be!!! I will always be a burden to others and hurt the remaining people that still love me. People are tired of me. I am tired of me. I try and I try and I fail over and over again.

I did one good thing. Yesterday I was at the grocery store. The cashier was nice, and friendly, and bagged our stuff quickly. She brightened my whole day. I asked her what her name was. Later I called the store manager and told him what a great employee she was. So she will get recognition, he told me, and earn points for some kind of prizes from the store. That is my one nice thing. Big deal.

It is time to stop. Just stop. Stop trying. Stop going to church. Stop getting together with friends and family members. Stop bothering people with emails they never answer and stop writing blogs that nobody reads. Stop cancer treatments. Stop all of it. People are tired of me and who can blame them? I am tired of myself. I have tried and tried- like the hamster on the wheel. I will never change.

I have no Bible verse. Maybe if I hadn’t been too sick to go to church I would have a Bible verse.

I have no prayer….

the other thing

WHEN COMPROMISE IS A BAD THING

WHEN COMPROMISE IS A GOOD THING

In a marriage, often couples argue. This is a normal thing. The key to a good marriage is compromise. When arguing, a man is convinced that he is right. The woman is equally convinced that she is right. He wants what she he wants and she wants what she wants. The key is to listen to each other, let each other say what they want to say and to try to put themselves in the other person‘s shoes. Then they both should try to reach a compromise that is mutually acceptable to both.

WHEN COMPROMISE IS BAD

As a Christian, I have often been asked to compromise my values and my beliefs. One example of this is the abortion issue. I believe that God creates this life at conception.I believe God has a purpose and a plan for this person‘s life. What about rape? In a rape, the rape is not the infant’s fault. She or he should not be slaughtered because his or her mother was raped. What about during the first three months of pregnancy? Again, the baby has a right to live. What if the mothers life is at risk? That baby has a right to live. I believe the doctor should do everything they can to sustain that baby’s life and to take the very best care of the mother.

OTHER ISSUES

This also extends to other issues. God says in His Word that marriage is a Divinely appointed sacrament between a man and a woman. What about transgenders? I believe that God created a boy to be a boy and a girl to be a girl. I do not believe we should change what God has created. What about kneeling for the flag? I hate racism. I believe that a protest should made in a different way than disrespecting flag of the United States of America. It stands for every veteran who fought for the protection, safety and freedom of Americans and for other countries. It is a symbol of those who died to protect freedom. It is a disgrace that athletes are being allowed to kneel during the national anthem.

CONCLUSION

There are many other issues where I am asked to compromise on my values and my beliefs. When I speak up about what I believe, it is not hate speech. I do not hate people when I do not agree with them. It is denying me my freedom of speech and my freedom of religion when I cannot speak up about what I believe in.

GROWING UP BLACK

GROWING UP BLACK

GROWING UP BLACK: Families Confronting Racism… I watched this live interview of black parents on NBC. I was saddened by what I learned. Black parents who must teach their very young children about the racism and the unfairness they will see as they grow up. One parent told the story of a little boy coming home crying because all the flat haired boys would not play with him- he was different, he had crinkly hair. There were other sad stories too. It is so awful to think little children must be taught that people are not going to like them because of the color of their skin, that life will be unfair to them and at the same time teach that child that they ARE somebody.

I AM A HYPOCRITE

What a hypocrite I am! I told people I was going to read books about diversity, I took big thick books home from the library two weeks ago and I have not read one single book! [To be honest, I have my daily routines, I am busy and I cannot remember the last time I read an entire book.] Well tomorrow morning after I take my dogs out, feed my birds and read my Bible I am going to sit in a chair and read one of these books! I have another book about diversity packed with my devotionals and coloring books to read on my camping trip next weekend.

I DO NOT LIKE PROTESTS

I admit, I have been angry at the protests. I have seen protests that have turned into riots with innocent people killed, people’s stores destroyed, police cars set on fire and all of the police villainized because of the evil racism and brutality of some cops. Innocent police officers have been killed- men that had absolutely nothing to do with the murder of any black men. Some cities are talking about doing away with our policemen. Other cities want their budgets cut. Police officers are here to preserve and protect our people from crime and lawlessness. Lawlessness is becoming rampant. Black lives DO matter. Absolutely. Not all black people are criminals. Not all white men are racist. Not all cops are bad cops.

ONE MORE THING

I am 59 years old. All of my life I have called black people, black people, white people, white people and Asian people Asian people. I mean no disrespect by using the terminology that I have used all of my life. I hate racism and police brutality. I do not think I am a racist if I say black people or if I refuse to hold up a sign and say that cops are bad people. Why do I suddenly feel like I must choose: either I support black people or I support police officers. Why can’t I do both? It is hard to teach an old dog new tricks. It is hard, but not impossible. We older people can learn and change and grow, it just takes us a little longer.

Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.” 1 John 4:7-8

Dear Jesus,

Help me to take time to read your Word tomorrow and then read one of my books about diversity. Help me to examine my own heart and see if there is any wicked way in me. Help me to use what little influence I have in my writing, to magnify and glorify You, and to write and teach others what I am learning about racism. Help me to truly love others, no matter what their culture, skin color, religion, sexual orientation or nationality may be. I do not have to agree with people’s religion or political views are to love them and lead them to Jesus. In your holy name I pray, amen

BEING JOYFUL FOR JESUS

Joyful, joyful, we adore Thee, God of glory, Lord of love; hearts unfold like flowers before Thee, opening to the sun above. Melt the clouds of sin and sadness, drive the doubt of dark away, giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the light of day.

All Thy works with joy surround Thee, earth and heaven reflect Thy rays, stars and angels sing around Thee, center of unbroken praise. Field and forest, vale and mountain, flowery meadow, flashing sea, chanting bird and flowing fountain, call us to rejoice in Thee.

Thou art giving and forgiving, ever blessing, ever blessed, wellspring of the joy of living, ocean depth of happy rest! Thee our Father, Christ, our brother all who live in love are Thine; teach us how to love each other, lift us to the joy divine.

Mortals, join the happy chorus which the morning stars begin; Father love is reining over us, brother love binds man to man. Ever singing, march we onward, victors in the midst of strife, joyful music leads us sunward in this triumph song of life.

I had a time of prayer this morning. I prayed for all the people in my church, my family and my friends. Then I thought, I want to praise and worship God. I had bought a hymnal on Amazon and this morning I had an awesome time worshipping God in song. The very first song in my hymnal was the song above. What a great message! No matter what our circumstances are we can find joy in Jesus! Jesus who loves us, not because we our good but HE is good. Our performance, whether good or bad does not determine our value, our worth or God’s love for us. We are precious to Jesus because HE is good and loving. He loves each one of us as if there was only one of us. Jesus died on the cross because He places a high value on us. We were worth dying for. He wants to adopt us into his family and give us eternal life. He wants to give us a happy life- not a pain free life but a joyful life right now right here on earth and then forever in the next life… will you find joy in Jesus today?

GOD’S BE- ATTITUDES

BE HUMBLE

Blessed are the poor in spirit [the humble person who puts the needs of others before their own needs] for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

THOSE WHO MOURN

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted [by a loving God.]

BE MEEK

Blessed are the meek [gentle, quiet, calm] for they shall inherit the earth.

HUNGER AND THIRST FOR JESUS

Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness [amI desperately seeking Jesus every day?] for they shall be filled.

BE MERCIFUL

Blessed are the merciful [patient with others, accepting, forgiving, loving] for they shall obtain mercy.

BE HOLY

Blessed are the pure in heart [pure, holy, having a right relationship with Jesus] for they shall see God.

BE AT PEACE

Blessed are the peacemakers [Am I at peace with God? Am I at peace with all people? Do I help others to find peace with God and peace with people? ] for they shall be called the sons of God.

WHEN YOU ARE PERSECUTED FOR JESUS

Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all manner of evil against you falsely for my sake [when Christians speak up for a baby’s right to life, God saying marriage is between one man and woman, that faith in Jesus Christ is the ONLY way to receive eternal life and that Jesus says in His Word that He is coming again Christians are persecuted.] God says we are blessed.

REJOICE WHEN PERSECUTED

Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great us your reward in heaven, for so persecuted the prophets who were before you.

PRESERVE LIFE

You are the salt of the earth, but if the salt loses it’s flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be trampled under foot by men. [Christians are we preserving, saving, protecting lives the way salt preserves our food? ]

SHINE FOR JESUS

You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden…. let your light do shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify YOUR FATHER which is in heaven.[ We are called to bring the light of Jesus to a dark and angry world. Do others know that you are a Christian and give glory to GOD or do they just think you are a good person? Do you see the difference? ]

Matthew chapter 5, New King James Version [Words in brackets are my own, whispered to me by God’s Holy Spirit]

Terri D

Dear Father,

Please help me today. I ask that you help me to be humble, meek, thirsty for You, merciful, pure, holy and a peacemaker for myself and others.Thank you that when I am heartbroken and mourning, you love and comfort me. Help me when I am persecuted. The prophets were persecuted. Jesus was persecuted. The apostles were persecuted. Help to rejoice when I am persecuted for Jesus. Help me to preserve life God. Help me to shine with the light of Jesus in a very dark world. Thank you for your Holy Word to teach us, lead us and guide us every day. Thank you for teaching me the attitudes you want me to have, every day. In Jesus name I pray, amen.

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